*Disclaimer* I must admit that I feel a little guilty posting this blog after reading Heidi's beauty blog. But I'm gunna do it anyway.

Alright, so I have just been feeling gross lately. You know the feeling, lazy, tired, bloated, weak...etc etc etc. And my mother, being the thin beautiful woman she is, said she needed to start dieting again so she could fit into her favorite spring "white pants." (don't tell her I put this on here or she will kill me!) Anyway, I got to thinking. I HATE dieting! I HATE it! With a fiery, burning passion. I like eating. I have figured out that it is hard to lose weight and get in shape without dieting. I realize to do need to start some form of dieting.This is what I decided to do...

I was watching a show on TLC the other day about some people that were considered morbidly obese (so sad). Obviously they were talking about surgery such as by-pass and lap band type of stuff. The doctor that was talking to these people said that the surgery would decrease the size of the stomach to a very small size. When it is decreased it only allows about 1 cup worth of food in it before you feel ridiculously uncomfortable/ sick.

My thoughts? I don't need a surgery to shrink my stomach. Why wouldn't I just try to do this myself. Why not try eating only one cup of food for a meal. This will certainly shrink the size of my stomach on its own. The thing I realized would be difficult is not getting hungry. So....like I have been told for so long now..."You need to eat 5-6 small meals a day." So eat breakfast-1 cup. then, a couple hours later, I get a healthy snack of 1 cup or less. Then for lunch another healthy cup. So on and so forth through out the rest of the day. Obviously I realize I can't just eat a cup of jelly beans and expect to get any nutritional benefit from it. It's gunna be really hard for the first 2 weeks I think. I can get through it if I have the will power.

My oldest brother Blaine made a rally good point when he was dieting before our trip to Cancun. He said:

"It doesn't matter what you eat when you are hungry. You will be full by the time you finish eating it."

This is sooo true. Whether I eat a cup of Broccoli or a cup of cheetos, I'm going to be full. So why not choose the healthier option? You will be satisfied in the end, and not have to deal with that guilty feeling.

The other part of my new lifestyle change is obviously exercise. I would much rather exercise than diet. SO basically I am gunna kick my butt to hurry this process along as quickly as possible. I did some research online yesterday about work out DVDs'. I came to the conclusion that my best option was probably Ms. Jillian Michaels. I read reviews for her videos and everybody loved her videos and got great results with her. The only negative thing I read was that they didn't like how pushy she is during her workouts...but duh! We have all watched biggest loser and we know she is pushy! You can't expect to get the "happy perky Richard Simons guy that wants you to march in place!"

Well I went to Walmart and bought 3 of her DVDs. Well I did one of them last night. It was only 20 minutes long, but it was easily the hardest/most intense work out I have ever done. *side not* I have had a personal trainer and he never pushed me this hard. She doesn't give you anytime to rest of anything. I am okay with this though because I worked harder in 20 minutes than I have worked when I go to the gym for 2 hours. I am sore today, which I am happy about. I feel like I worked every muscle in my body. I Highly suggest these videos. So awesome.

SO now I am going to explain why I am doing this. I am sick of feeling "gross." I am tired of buying "body slimmers" that practically squeeze my organs out. I am tired of the muffin top, love handle look. I'm at a time in my life when I should be in the best shape... and I'm not. I want to get to a place where I like how I feel about myself. Obviously I am going to always feel like I have things about myself I want to change, but I'm over that. I'm doing this for myself. I want to be happier and healthier.